I am more, than what you hear and see, and less, than what fantasies inspire. I am complex, and unique, and have an untouchable depth, and yet remain so very simple in essence.
I am a masochist. I am a slut. These things are true. Yet, they are not the whole of me, nor do they encompass every part of me. Each is only a piece, a fragment, of the one whose fingers type these letters and form the words to which your eyes read even now.
Is it so difficult to be able to understand the essence of any woman? To see, for example, how her intelligence, sexuality, and strength are interlocked in the very fiber of her being? To see the emotions, desires, and needs, plainly displayed and evident in her own femininity?
I will not be suffocated by the ignorance. I refuse to say all that I am, can ever be just one or more particular traits or characteristics defined by those other than myself. I will not subscribe to the notion, that anyone could ever know as much about myself as I, by knowing what is the norm for others.
I am content to search for men and women who can understand this. I have learned too much, in my time, to compromise my own self for the superficial trappings of temporary satisfaction.
I am more than less. Those who can see, will understand it. Those who cannot, won't.
1 comments:
You are more today than what you were yesterday and you are less today than what you will be tomorrow. The depth of you ever increasing ever racing to the unknown to be known and only the one who runs besides you today can know you today.
I do love your thoughts. I do think they are pioneering. I have always thought if I understood a Masochist physically and mentally that I could heighten the thrill my excitement my pleasure as well as her needs. But we all wear masks some many different masks either to hide or not expose the whole of us for whatever reason from the past the present or the future. Maybe its the fear of total exposure of having ones self so exposed that they feel they have no more to offer.
So is this why we are always seeking always running to the unknown to add more to ourselves. To add more petals to the rose so there is always more to strip away to be more than less.
I find you to be an adorable complex creature and feel my life is enriched by your thoughts. I listened to that audio clip of you begging to the Captain and it was so nice listening to the voice of the one who has such meaningful thought process. But I am glad that I read your thoughts before listening to that or my perception of the creature you are would not be the same. But then come to think of it will not be the same tomorrow anyway LOL.
Your long ober due here for another entry get cracken puppy.
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